Fate lies in wait

The forecast reveals the change. Inside me. The waves are deep. Undulating. Distance grows. I am severed from my soul. My soul. The witness to energy. The witness to belief. The world itself no longer belongs to me. No. It merely reflects the way I am growing into someone else. Another's mind. A mind not my own. The hormones rages, and doctors cannot explain the endless debates that persist here. In my mind. The fates wait for me to come back. Find my way back to them. In a tempest. In a storm. That is there, on the horizon. I know it may be time to come home. Find another day, to seek the truth. A truth, that tempts us all. To me, it is, with her beauty. Her energy that swarms. That swells. That melts the minutes away. That blends the day into night. That casts shadows here, before all my doubts. It is her. A lingering sound. That fills my heart, with new found relief. I would give my life to find this. To find this peace. Peace, here, spread out before my belief. Shall I find resurrection in this change? Death, then rebirth? I do not know. I cannot know. For the future is unwritten. Unseen. To all who have sight, nothing can be, what it is meant to be. In the beauty of belief. In the temper of sight, that gazes out, across the ocean waves. Into the blues, the waters deep, that mix with the blues on horizon's edge. It all remains, when I close my eyes. The world still speaks, when I drift off into sleep. In sleep, it is my hope that I might find a reason. To bring me back to health. To give me back my soul. For somewhere I've lost her. In the changes my body beguiles. I've lost it all. In the changes that change a boy into a man, I've been lost. Changing the reasons, in the seasons, for a cost that my soul simply cannot pay. Not today. Nor tomorrow. I am lost here, in my sorrow. Drifting away from the sight that gaze me a presence in the light. Now today is gone, tomorrow will lost just the same. Until my body comes back again. Comes home to me. Before my eyes, shall see. A resurrection in a will that has no end. I will be. Found. In all the changes on this day. Found. Before my youth has completely, gone away. Somewhere. I will see, just what fate, has in store for me.